update

package

 So for the past two days, I (along with Anna and Kent) have been helping my neighbor paint her house.  Yesterday we were there for about 6 hours.  It was very long and I was so tired by the end. Once we finished, my neighbor who is good friends with my mom told me "Oh, by the way your mom called, she said there is a package waiting for you at home." my tired brain took a minute to realize...

MY MACBOOK

The next 30 minutes of chatter were so hard to get through knowing my precious computer was waiting for me at home.  But we did get there, and it was a happy moment :)

my painted self waiting for it to charge. 

oh my goodness I love this thing. It is so fun to scroll and play with!! Its all i've been doing like all day. Its very different from a PC, but I am becoming adjusted very quickly! 

oh its so fun:)

ALSO: Successfully completed all Thank you cards. Boom.

the voice

Its 1:30 a.m.

I'm watching the voice.

I just love it.

my life at this moment

>>>graduation thank you's. I'm almost half way there!! It is a tedious job 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 >>>I ordered a Macbook with my graduation money! I am so excited. It should come sometime this week. (anna is going to teach me how to use it :)_

 

 

 

>>>the Summer Musical.  Its coming up.  It is "Spamalot" which I know really nothing about other than that Monty Python movie that is litterally (to me) the most annoying movie of all time. I absolutely hate it.  So why am I doing a musical about it? I really dont know.  thats a lie yes I do: I really want to be with my friends all together and spend time with them before I leave, and this is the best way! So hopefully it will be fun despite the wierdness of the play.

 

 

>>>I disabled my facebook account.  IT WAS AWESOME.  I feel so good about it.  Being out of High School, I really don't want to know all of the drama that goes on in other peoples lives...I would just like to worry about myself and my family, and facebook was really distracting from that.  I can already see myself becoming less anxious and more involved in my family.  I'm sure I will go back once I move to Idaho, but for the summer at least, I am facebook free.

 

 >>I have a bulging disk in my back...(not even sure what that means) but it causes a lot of pain when I walk and lay down, in my back as well as my legs.  Its very hard to sleep and I often stay up until the wee hours of the morning before I can get to bed. 

I'm going to Physical theropy, and it is helping some, but the treatments hurt and I dread going some days.

 

 

 >>>I love this video!! It makes me feel good and impowered...and makes me want to dance a bit.  My favorite line in this is

                            “Sometimes a Shaddow wins”

So often I let thoughts creep into my mind that degrade me..or make me feel bad about myself and my relationships with others...over analyzing and worrying when I really dont need to...or giving too much credit to someone who I really would be better off without.  But I want to be brave and let go of those people, and hold on to the ones that make me feel good and loved.  And thats what I think of everytime I watch this!

so good.

 

 

 

things I forgot to blog about

PROM

 

I was so lucky to be asked by Alex! He is such a great guy and a blast to be around.  He made me laugh and made the night so much fun!

these boys were sharp

 

we could not have planned these colors better. I loved it

he was basically the best date ever.

my beautiful friend Kristyn won Prom Queen!! She has Down's Syndrom and is the sweetest girl you will ever meet.  She makes me smile so much.  She was ready to be done with prom by the point we took the picture haha it was very late.

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Seminary Graduation

 

 

I cant find the picture from the actual event, but this is my lovely seminary class (or most of them) on the last day of seminary!  Seminary has taught me so much, and I doubt I could have gotten through 4 years of schooling without it.  I often walked through the halls and looked at the students and literally thought, I could not do this without Seminary.  I kinda felt bad for them because High School is hard!  I'm so glad I had the spirit of Seminary while I attended high school.

 

 

I sang "This is the Christ" for a musical number at the event along with some other youth from the stake.  I was so nervous because it is a deeply powerful song  and can move people if it brings the spirit...and I was just nervous I wouldnt do that for people.

I was singing soprano, which was a terrible idea, and had to hit a high 'A' as the last note and hold it for quite some time...I did it pretty well all through practice, but I was so worried I wouldnt hit the note when we performed..  We said a lot of prayers as a group, that we could sing with the spirit and listen to the words and what we were singing about.  When we performed, I was overwhelmed.  I felt the Savior's love so stong- stronger than I ever had when we rehersed- and I knew it was the spirit.  I cracked on my high 'A' ...but it was alright.  I was feeling so much love and joy it was nearly impossible to accomplish, and others even pointed out how my emotion brought the spirit.  It was a wonderful experience

 

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zoo

 

anna blogged about it here with lots 'a pictures! :)

 

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I will probably think of more things later.  I hope your sunday is wonderful!

wake up

I'm so happy to be graduated!

but....its also a big wake up call.
I'm seeing now that I may never talk to those people I talked to every day in High School ever again.  I have wonderful friends that I still talk with...but some people that I thought we would be friends forever are fading fast.

 I made a lot of mistakes in High School...I put my trust in wrong people on occasion, I forgave when I was wronged (which I'm proud of) but was then taken advantage of over and over by those same people who wronged me...and the sad part is is I'm just seeing it now.  I was so easy to push over for the sake of keeping peace. 

I feel very foolish right now.

But there is a bright side.  I'm one step closer to Idaho.  I am so excited to leave, I love Kansas and the good moments I have had here...but High School just really took its toll on me  (that sounds so cliche and I know it..but its true)  I need to be my own person and just live for what I love most and not have to worry about the lables and confusion from school

I really sound like I'm a tourchered artist or something.

Having Anna here really helps.  I would be way more of a mess than I am if she wasnt here. 

Sometimes I wish I could go back and do it differently...but then I think about having to actually GO BACK. and I decide its just better to live with what I got. 

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graduated.

done.

2013.

happy.

 

grad party

to celebrate my graduation I had a
GRAD PARTY. 
what else would you have?

It was quite a festive gathering.  Anna and Kent and Mom helped decorate and we made lots and lots of food.  Anna even let me borrow her new birthday dress :) I just love her.  (and it)

my wonderful grandpa just got home from the hospital a week ago from knee surgury, he told me he would practice walking everyday so that he could come to my party...and he did :) I love him so much and seeing him walk and be so happy made my heart swell. I love you grandpa!

 

 

 

It was such a lovely day!! Thank you to everyone who came/ celebrated from afar! It was absolutely wonderful :)

surprise

Wow hey.  Its been a while! So sorry, I have just been being AWESOME. But srsly. 

I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL
 

I am so excited.  BUT before we get into that,  there is a surprise. 

ANNA AND KENT ARE HERE!!!
What?? I know.  So this past Thursday, I was having a very not so good day.  I had 2 government tests an essay and an english final to study for, plus 2 concerts.  I was just overwhelmed and everything was harder than it needed to be.  SO. I was sitting on my computer, writing my essay, hating everything...when I got a picture message from my sister...who I thought was in Idaho...It was of her on our hammock outside of our hose!! I screamed and ran outside...but peaked over the edge of the house, just to be sure I wasnt being tricked or something...but there they were!! I cried and hugged anna because I missed my sister very much:) I am so happy they surprised me!! It was awesome.

 

 

they came to my band and choir concerts those next two days and were so supportive and awesome.  <3 I love them